By Abhey Singh (IIT Baba)
Ref. Original Article: 11. Night – Abhey Singh Ref. Original Article:
How have I arrived here?
A mind carrying the entire weight of human history. A consciousness shaped by centuries of thought, by words that have lost their meaning, by ideas that were once tools but have now become cages.
We are told that life is progress, that we are moving forward, that we are building something greater. But what if we are just running in circles? What if, in our desperate attempt to measure life, we have only measured our own insignificance?
This article is about the illusion of success, the addiction to numbers, and the inevitable collapse that precedes renewal.
1. The Weight of History: The Burden We Cannot See
“One holding the entire human history in mind, the weight of all that is transferred.”
We inherit not just genes, but ideas. We are born into a world that has already decided what life means, how success is measured, what is valuable and what is not.
And so, without questioning, we carry the weight of past generations—their beliefs, their fears, their definitions of right and wrong.
But does history move forward, or does it just repeat itself in new forms?
Example:
A child is born. They do not care about money, power, or status. But slowly, they are taught—”this is important, this is how the world works.” And before they realize it, they are part of the race, carrying the same burdens as those before them.
If history is just repetition, is there really progress? Or just an illusion of movement?
2. Words as Tools… or as Weapons?
“Words have no value other than to play games with each other.”
Words were meant to express, to communicate, to help consciousness move forward. But today, words are used for something else:
- Words meant to unite now divide.
- Words meant to express love are now weapons of hate.
- Words meant to guide have become tools of manipulation.
We debate endlessly. We argue over ideas, identities, beliefs. But does any of it actually change anything? Or are we just moving words around, pretending they mean something?
Example:
A leader gives a speech about unity, but the words are only meant to gain power. A person posts about kindness online but speaks with cruelty in real life. The words mean nothing without the intention.
If words have become empty, then what are we really saying?
3. The Race to Nowhere: Measuring Life in Numbers
“Parameters are drawn to measure human life… this way of looking at life with numbers.”
Everything in modern life is counted:
- Money – The more you have, the more valuable you are.
- Followers – The more people watch you, the more important you must be.
- Achievements – The more titles you collect, the more respected you become.
But all of it is a game—one that never ends.
- You earn money, and then you need more.
- You get followers, and then you chase more.
- You win an award, and then another person wins a bigger one.
It never stops.
Example:
A billionaire spends his life making money. In the end, he dies. His name appears in history books, his wealth is mentioned in articles—but he is gone. Does any of it truly matter?
If life is measured only in numbers, then it is just a statistic, not an experience.
4. Titles and the Illusion of Success
“Titles will be given: ‘Richest’ ‘Most Intelligent’ ‘Sexiest’ ‘Powerful’… and the addiction to poison will keep going.”
People chase titles as if they are proof of meaning. But titles are just labels—temporary, changing, meaningless once time moves forward.
- The richest person today will be forgotten tomorrow.
- The most powerful leader will one day be a name in history.
- The most beautiful face will age.
But we treat these things as if they are real.
Example:
A man wins an award for being the “greatest” at something. He feels fulfilled for a moment. But soon, someone else wins. And then another. The title moves, but the emptiness remains.
If we only live for labels, are we living at all?
5. The Stupidity of Our Own Importance
“If only we could realize how stupid we are. How meaningless we are.”
Humanity is arrogant. We think we are important. We think we are saving the world.
But the truth?
- We don’t even know who we are.
- We don’t even understand the universe we claim to protect.
- We destroy what we say we love.
We build machines to explore space, but we cannot explore ourselves.
We create philosophies about existence, but we cannot sit in silence.
We pretend we are gods, but we do not even understand the body we live in.
Example:
A person spends their life trying to be “great.” But if they step back and look at the universe—the vastness of stars, the billions of years before them, the billions of years after them—they will see how small they really are.
If we accept our insignificance, we can finally live without the burden of pretending to be important.
6. The Tight Web of Fear and Desire
“The web we have built is tight. It won’t be easy to get out of this cycle of fear and desire.”
Fear keeps us running. Desire keeps us chasing.
- Fear of failure.
- Fear of being forgotten.
- Fear of being nobody.
So we keep moving, keep consuming, keep proving ourselves. But no one stops to ask—what happens if we stop?
Example:
A hamster runs on a wheel, thinking it is getting somewhere. But the wheel just spins. The hamster never moves forward, only in circles.
Are we any different? Or are we just running on a bigger wheel?
7. The Destruction Before Renewal
“Till then, all we can do is move towards the night of destruction so that something new comes. Something has to die for something to be born.”
Every great change comes from collapse.
- The old must die for the new to emerge.
- The ego must be broken for wisdom to arise.
- The illusion must shatter for truth to be seen.
We are moving toward destruction—not as an end, but as a necessary clearing.
Example:
A forest fire burns everything to the ground. It seems like death. But from the ashes, new life begins. The destruction was not the end—it was the beginning.
Maybe we are at that moment. The moment before collapse. The moment before something new.
Conclusion: Let Go of the Race, Enter the Night
If life is just a game of numbers, let go of the scoreboard.
If titles mean nothing, stop chasing them.
If words have lost meaning, stop looking for answers in them.
Step into the night—the destruction, the unknown, the place where everything ends so that something real can begin.
And maybe, in that space, free from measurement, free from competition, free from illusion—
You will finally live.
